Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I have been so slack!!!!!

How is everyone going???

It has been school holidays here and life has been very very hectic lol. I have been trying to get to post something for weeks but can't seem to tie myself down long enough!!

During the school holidays I had my step kids the first week and Mr9(autistic) was a challenge to say the least.

I was watching Today Tonight or Current Affair (can't remember which one lol) last night and there was a single mum with a 6 year old autistic son and she showed her house which was a series of locks on everything from the oven to the fridge to the taps. I felt like crying for her.

My step son is very similar to her little boy although not quite to the same extreme. But basically our life works on his demands and we have to lock the fridge and freezer, otherwise he steals food and it is not uncommon for him to take a full 3 litre bottle of juice, get the lid off and basically drink and/or destroy the contents before anyone has noticed. I remember earlier this year when I had taken two packets of sausages out of the freezer and left them in the fridge to defrost over night. Well he got up in the morning and managed to sneak out to the fridge without any of us hearing and take the sausages. We came out when we heard the back door being opened to find sausages mushed into the carpet, all over the tv and dvd player, smeared over the cupboards and there he was sitting out side covered in sausage mince with the dog eagerly licking it off him. Believe me when I say that raw sausages don't come off appliances or carpet very easily!!!! My heart went out to this lady who deals with her son on her own full time. We did have my step son full time and now that we have had that break due to his mother and we now have him on a part time basis, I don't think we could go back to having him full time, I just don't think we would cope. It sounds horrible to say that but the stress that is in the house when we have him and the constantness of his demands places alot of pressure on us and also on the other kids. The other kids don't like having their friends over when we have him because of some of his behaviours (smearing of poo being the worst). You feel like you are on a constant seesaw swaying between loving him to bits and wanting to help him as much as you can to wanting to just scream at him which does no good anyway. He has you feeling so many emotions on any given day it is just unbelievable.

Anyway as usual I have gotten sidetracked lol,,,,,,our little business is slowly getting organised and I am trying to stay positive. I am not the most optimistic person when it comes to spending money to make money and I keep having doubts, mainly due to the fact that we don't have much to start with lol,,,,,thankfully Hubby is the opposite and is determined that we can make it work, so we will see. I'm not going to give up, I will keep going until I can prove either way whether or not we can make it work. Time will tell and we have only just begun, so stay tuned!!!!